Thin fat fat

I felt very thin yesterday. As I walked down Exhibition Road my jeans felt extremely loose and my belt had to move in a notch but then I ate lunch ... and ate tea .... and ate dinner and chocolate and all sorts of lovely things and now I weigh ...

12 stone 6 pounds

And I feel fat.

Lighter Life is on 2nd November when I have to weigh about 12 4 because you have to allow for clothes. I have a week on my own coming up so let's hope I can shift some over the next 5 days.

huge

12 stone 6lbs

Oh no. I am really heavy. I do have my period which might account for some of it but I have to lose this. I cannot hang onto this weight like some ghastly old jumper that I love and can't bring myself to part with.

Rising dough

12stone 5lbs and rising
Oh Shit. All food makes me fat. I think I might try Lighter Life. I have GOT to lose weight.
Yesterday I Zumbaed and swam and dog walked and went to college and shagged Mr Smith but I ate too much dinner and a zillion cupcakes.
Today I have my period and I am having lunch with ID Jane.

Going up

Weight: 12stone 5lbs
Oh fuck. Well, I have to admit if it stood still I ate it yesterday so only two pounds up seems modest. In order to get this sorted out I am going madly exercising today. I am determined not to put on weight. I am no longer feeling weird and have recovered a voracious appetite. It will be quelled with lettuce not chocolate.

Normality returns

12stone 3lbs
Appetite is back. I feel just wonderful but I am terrified that my weight will go shooting up again. I will exercise more.
I ate lunch at a fabulous Italian restaurant - really fabulously fabulous. I am so full. I then had tea with ID Jane and ate cupcakes (yes, more than one). I want dinner but think I'd better be careful as it could be disastrous.
I am so cosy right now and sort of in love ... with myself. The temptation to treat myself with food is very great.

Bye bye Baby

Weight: 12stone 3lbs
Feeling: Considerably less huge
Wanting: To chuck someone.

I feel omnipowerful. Queen Bitch. I am out to clean up my life - less fat, less crap, less being continuously nice.

Fat day

Weight: 12stone 4lbs
Feeling: Really fat
Needing: Space
Eating: Much more.
Goal: 3 meals a day and 12stone by Thursday.

Appetite has improved. Had lunch out with Ben, ate it all. Must stop drinking wine. Went shopping but too fat for any of the clothes. Must dance and swim.

Getting there

Weight: 12stone 4lbs
Feeling: Odd and very unhungry
In need of: A hug
Avoiding: Contact.

A bigger splash

Weight: 12stone 5lbs
Mood: a bit blue
Want: To chuck the lover
Enjoying: A glass of wine

I went swimming today. Outside. It was damned cold but beautifully sunny.

Little Miss Sunshine

Weight 12stone 6lbs
Thinking: Immoral thoughts
Wanting: A lover
Feeling: I'm walking on Sunshine woahoah ... and it really feels good.

I really wish I had lost weight when I could have done and not blobbed about because now, when it matters, I am too fucking fat. Oh well. Love me, love my flabby bits.

I've cracked it

The solution: Fall in love and lose loads of weight. It's easy. Admittedly you will feel absolutely revolting and want to vomit all the time. You are fit for nothing more than staring vacantly into space for hours on end and even the tiniest of tasks, such as ironing, become Herculean. However, the weight loss is drastic.

Weight today: 12stone 7lbs