New Year’s Ressies

Last year I was lunatically ambitious.  I made stupid resolutions that I would never manage to stick to for longer than a week.  This year I have one.  Be more selfish.  This means looking after number one.  And I will.

I have started a bullet journal.  This is for all aspects inc food and exercise but interestingly I didn’t put weight.  I had work and steps way ahead of diet.

I don’t want to overdocument any more.  Live more, move more, moan less.

179

Given what I ate for Christmas Eve - wow.  I thought it would be far worse than that.
 

177

Still as fat as ever but not bigger than I was which I suppose is something.  Just infuriatingly fat.  Apparently it is something to do with the food I eat.  Oh.  This time last year I was 183.  So less this year.  I am definitely far more controlled these days.  I will have to be careful over Christmas though it seems a bit of a shame to not eat huge amounts of everything washed down with buckets of alcohol. 

177

Well that surprising.  No weight gain. Obviously there was but now there isn’t.  Back at SW.  OurPath was irritating in extreme.  Fb page is good though.  

177

Whilst it is great not to be heavier than I was in July it has taken an enormous effort to get back to this weight having ballooned to over 185.

Our Path is brilliant though I haven’t got my head round the food groups yet.  Needs more work.  So far I have lost 8lbs which is really really good.  I am now at 95% of my set goal for the first bit.  Just half a pound to go.

I have a ghastly stiff neck.  Two physio sessions so far and it is still awful.  But I think the physio makes it worse.  I think I need a better physiotherapist.

177

Whole pack of made for sharing crisps
A huge pizza dripping in cheesey goo - amazingly lovely
A bacon and egg sarni
2 g&ts
An entire jug of Pimms
An entire barbecue
A huge Sunday lunch inc Yorkshire pud.
No puddings or cakes or biscuits.

So. If I avoid sugar it all goes down nicely.  I mostly avoid bread too.

177

Low carb suits me. 

177

Low carb eating works.  I eat vast amounts of meat, fish, eggs, cheese and veg and lose weight.  I also have nuts, fruit and yogurt or creme fraiche.  This is insane.  But I don’t eat flour or sugar. I feel so well.  My back aches and my feet hurt but apart from that I feel ok.

I love losing weight without trying.  I do need to take some exercise.  I have been woefully sedentary of late but I have been hard at work.  

179

After a desperate struggle with ballooning in the hot weather and weighing in at 183 I am pleased to have dropped 4lbs.  New thing is Low Carb.  I am eating huge quantities of meat and veg and nothing else.  Bit of a killer but if I am really really full I don’t want sweet stuff. And it works.

I don’t imagine I will poo for a year.  That’s the problem with high protein diets. Lots of water required.

179

Pancake overdose.  Serious pancake overdose.  About 6 or 7 or 8. I took a final one from the pile as I was clearing up, put it in my mouth, then spat it out.  There was no way I was hungry at the end of dinner so what was I trying to feed?  I am amazed I lost weight.  That is 5lbs since I got back.

Dinner out tonight.  I want to enjoy it but I don’t want to overdo it.  I want to be splendid at Friday’s weigh in.

Power walking is ghastly.  Really difficult with a dog.  I swam as well but the water was cold and we didn’t feel very swimmy so we only did about 15 minutes.  It was enough.

181

Keep your hair on, it was 184.  Then it went up even further due to a giant cheese fest.

According to SW weigh in I gained 7.5 lbs on holiday.  In two weeks.  That is pretty spectacular.  Much of that weight was water retention from flying.  My bolster legs ached but have now gone down.  Honestly if I hadn’t overdone it at the cheese fest my weight could now be 5lbs down.

My goal this week is to make it to about 179.

New exercise is power walking.  I haven’t actually done any but, look, I have lost 3 lbs just thinking about it.  Just imagine what will happen when I actually do some.  I wonder how to do it.  Lots of elbows and arm swinging I suppose.

My sister in law told me how they once went cross country skiing and the wife of the other couple was really unfit and got really hot and sweaty and just held them back all the time being a total pain.  That would have been me, except I would have trained for it.  I still might have been dreadful.  So I think power walking might be much the same miserable experience.  I will try.  

177

Toad in the hole.  Oh wow.  So good.  I have paid the price.

177

I knew that binge was a bad idea!

176

Apparently it takes 100 days until you really lose weight.  Anything before that is temporary weightloss.  One big meal and you will wallop it back on.  After 3months the weight will really go down and stay off.  This has to be 3 months of consecutive dieting days.  By this time good eating habits should be the norm.

I was so thrilled with my excellent 9 lb loss that I decided to celebrate with a bingefest.  Oh dear.  It was so huge I couldn’t eat any dinner.

Three white doorsteps, with butter and Camembert, beans on toast with cheese, banana custard with sugar and cream, little gems, a bit more custard, anything else I could cram in and then cheese and biscuits later.  Oh dear.  I felt full for the first time all week.  It was lovely.

177

No nice things to eat.

179

But I have been absolutely GOLDEN so gaining weight is just not fair.
Bad mood.  Grrr.

178

A loss each week.  1.5lbs.

That registers 3 on SW but 6 since Christmas.  

178

178

Ooooh this is better.  

179

At long blooming last.

180

silly Sunday

I still feel a bit sick.  OK Magnificent Monday I greet you.

180

I am bored of 180.  I think 178 would be more pleasurable in many ways.

180

Slimmer of the week.  Queen of all she surveys.  I ate cake.

180

One hundred and eighty - top darts score for me.  Four pounds down.
This time last year I was 174 - work to be done.  

181

Why I wake up all night long - sleep apnea.
Lose weight, buy a machine and take more exercise.
OK.

181

I now only have 17 to go to make it to my 20 lb first phase.  That will take me to base camp.

Alarm bells .... Tuesday lunch, not sure which Tuesday but there is a lunch coming up.
Kiddies coming down on 19th.  Usual fatted calves to be served.  At least I am Dry Januarying.  It will really really difficult but I will be iron willed.  

182

Well, at last I seem to have stopped gaining weight and actually this has only taken two days not the two weeks it feels like.  On a good note I haven’t felt hungry but I have felt very hefty and bloated.

I wish the horrible cough I have would depart.  That would make exercise a bit more appealing.

I still haven’t exactly worked out how to lose these 20lbs I want to shift.  Now 18.  

184

Day One was bloody perfect.  Well there was that cheese incident but apart from that it was very good indeed.  I am extra vast now.  Why?  Oh balls.

Look, a minimum of 4lbs must disappear before Friday.  Help!

2018

I feel like a heavyweight prize fighter entering the ring.  In the blue corner we have Mrs Fatso Blob Features weighing in at a staggering 184 pounds and in the red corner we have Food.  The crowd roar and the fight begins.

I am going to adopt the attitude of if I don’t want to get bruised I must duck the blows.  I can’t get out of the ring as I actually have to face food in some form, often.  I really don’t quite understand why anyone should need to seek help to not do something.  You don’t want to drink alcohol, just don’t drink it.  You don’t want to eat too much, just have less food.  I so wish it was that easy.  I will pretend it is.  Addiction isn’t a behaviour I know.

My resolutions:
Eat less, drink less alcohol, get up earlier, work more, less Facebook, no internet shopping, be tidier, spend less, finish things, take better care of self, dress better, exercise more and improve concentration.

His resolution:
Abolish Sober Monday.

I like his better.