1714

12.3
Appetite back ish.  I had a terrible biscuity session yesterday - those lovely big posh biscuits from Sainsbums.  I now need to be very careful indeedy if I am to keep this weight down.

1720

12 stone 2lbs.  I have lost 10lbs in a week.  This is terrifying.  I cannot even feel exhilarated.  I feel nervous. I need to gain weight just to make me feel normal.  I feel sick.  I feel weird.  I cannot eat.

Today is the first time I have eaten since Monday.  I have been barred from the pub but I don't really care.  I did care.  I cared a lot.  But today I think Glen the Good is a drunk idiot, his partner isn't much better and their pub is a dive.  Thank god I no longer need to go there.

I am so thin.  My face in concave.  Clothes I haven't worn for years fit.  This is odd.  I like it but it is happening a bit too fast.  I feel so strange.  Of course I am not thin at all.  I am 12 stone with flab.

Today I ate lovely red soup and bread and butter at the hotel where I swim - my club.
Then this evening I had chicken stew with a slice of bread and butter.  And lots of wine.  I laughed a lot with lovely Mr Smith and I feel SO much better.

With a bit more effort I could make it down to below 12stone.  Hey, that would be good.

1726

People revolt over gin and brandy tax.  Quite right too.

In holy shit at pub.  As per.  Keeping out of there for the forseeable.

Feel thinner.  Stomach reacting badly to nervousness.

Weird dream - my parents, my seaside flat and the Queen.  I had to drive D o E's car in the snow to deliver some curtains to Balmoral.  I realised I could park it anywhere as it didn't matter if it got a parking ticket.  If it was left for any length of time it sounded an alarm and security people appeared. I actually needed them because I couldn't drive this damned car or deliver the stupid curtains.  Eventually some sensible bloke appeared to help me out but he didn't really.  Met Lady Jane and Lady Anne, the very nice practical ladies in waiting.  Horsey sort.

Didn't go to SW.  Will try Friday.  If I keep up this weight loss I will be a sugarplum by then.

1760

Went to gym and swimming yesterday.  Mother in law came ate too much and drank too much champagne.  Headache. Groan.

Yes, well, haven't been around for a few days.  Went to France where I ate a subliminal lunch.
Weight was vast last week.  Better this week.

Watched hilarious Spanish video on FB of girl trying to get into too small jeans.  Must see if I can find it on YouTube.

Aiming for a lighter weekend.