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Oh dear, been a bit of a porker Fattipuff of late.  I was just about to get my act together when I won an enormous Easter egg.

Just one good day.  May it be today.  Actually, I wasn't too bad yesterday.

I absolutely have to get back on track.  No more wine!  No more chocolate.  No more snacks.

172

Oh bollocks chocolate.  I ate so much of it.  After an enormous roast cooked by Mr Smith with every trimming and more I then attacked the Easter eggs bought for the Easter egg hunt.  Daim were boring, cream eggs are just gorgeously creme eggy, caramel eggs yummy sickly goo, smarties as you would expect, little ones a bit fiddly but we managed.

Goal of the week to lose 2 pounds by Friday and a bit more.

Chocolate is evil.  So is alcohol.

Today I will limit my chocolate intake and cut out all alcohol.  Difficult and easy.

Trying to come up with a way to lose weight without leaving your bed.  Eat nothing .... Then I'm stuck. 

171

Please God make me 170.  OK I won't eat enough chocolate to hold an Easter egg hunt I my stomach.    I will be controlled.  I will even attempt a no chocolate day.

It's Sunday.  I can drink on Sundays.  I would rather not but Mr Smith has a bottle of bubbly lined up for some reason.  I am always terrified it is to celebrate his leaving me but it's probably great golf.

171

V. Annoyed as I weighed in at half a pound off a stone lost at SW.  How frustrating is that?  13.5 pounds!  If I had worn something flimsier, not eaten that stupid cake or gone swimming I could have done it.

Right, concerted effort now.  Fridays are always my rubbish days and yesterday was pretty diabolical with a hot cross bun, toast and tara, cheese, proper lunch, macaroons, dinner: salmon and potatoes, Haagen Daz and chocolate.  I was jolly full.

OK. It's Graham Norton and me and a painting this morning.  The sooner it's finished I can go and play.

170

Oh wow.  And I was SO bad yesterday.  I went to the Nutmeg Cafe in Hythe and had two cakes.  The first, a Victoria Sponge, had weird cream in the middle that I didn't really like.  Also the sponge was rather heavy and not that good.  After I had eaten the whole thing to be sure I didn't like it I had a chocolate biscuity thing.  OMG.  It was heaven on earth.  Malteser chocolate tiffin.  It involved chocolate, syrup, butter, maltesers and biscuits with white and milk chocolate swirled thickly on the top.  Amazeballs. I waddled down the high street meaning to go to Waitrose but just heaved me and my stomachs into the car and drove heavily home.

I had many a drink (softie) in the pub.  So syns were at about 117.  I am supposed to not exceed 15.

171

I wanna bacon sarni - crispy bacon on plastic white with drippy butter and bacon fat oozing o'er the ketchup.

I want a donut with big jam.

I want 24 little macaroons in assorted colours.

I want Victoria Sponge with jam and buttercream.

I want cream tea.

I want a huge fry up.

I will have bran flakes.

172

Oh God, this is taking forever.  Since my weekend away with T I just haven't really got back on track.
I will have to be golden tomorrow and try to hit 170 by Friday.

I walked 20k today.  I was just going to blob around but somehow I got the walking bug and got going.  I got into smaller jeans but the flab hangs over the top.  I just want my clothes to be comfortable.

I need to get back into JB which I haven't even opened for two weeks.

I will read my reasons.  I absolutely have to get my BMI down.  I will.

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I seem to have got off quite lightly considering the amount I ate over the weekend.  Yesterday T took me to a bakery for breakfast.  There were long bench tables to sit at with butter and jam and you helped yourself to any breads you fancied, toasted them and stuffed your face.  We started with boiled eggs and sour dough soldiers then moved on to toast with delicious strawberry jam and a big croissant.  I missed out on muesli, porridge, pain au chocolate, Eccles cakes, coffee cake (enormous), hummingbird pecan and banana cake, lemon polenta cake and chocolate brownies.  I was just too full.  I will have to go again.  There was also some gorgeous looking fruit bread too.  I actually couldn't eat anything else all day.

What I ate:  Friday night - enormous steak dinner followed by cheesecake.  Sat morn: breakfast at Carluccios.   Sat elevenses - hot chocolate with everything.  Sat lunch - not much.  Sat tea - muffin (big).  Sat dinner: not much due to horrible food at Zizzis but did have sorbet which was good.  Sunday brunch - Gorgeous cooked breakfast with hot cross bun bread.  Tea- more hcb bread.  Dinner: fabbo hot chicken salad.  Monday - two breakfasts, one enormous - see above.

Everything was megacarbs except my steak on Friday but I had loads of chips to help that down.
Now for a few days of calm food.  I want soup and juices.

My digestion is now back to normal.