177

Slight change of tactic.  Work in monthly increments not weekly or daily.  So the goal is to weigh less each month.  There will be brilliant weight loss months and rubbish ones but even if there are weight gain weeks by the end of the month they will be invisible.  I love it.

At the end of every month I have to weigh less than the previous month.  Yeah.

SW weigh in today.  Must find book, money, fruit, self, motivation and have a huge weight loss suddenly beforehand.  

176

My non adventure to Dymchurch was just a very long walk with a closed tea shop at the end of it.  I took a bus full of mad people back and spent the rest of the day undoing all the good in the pub.  Now have to visit my parents in London with a hangover.  Well, actually I am still drunk!  

178 lbs

Given the amount I ate over the weekend I think a gain of only 1lb is positively modest.  I have til Friday to sort that out and in the meantime will jump up and down a lot.

Trying to drink more water.  Definitely drank more tea over weekend but also vast quantities of alcohol.  Woke up this morning feeling batey.  Worked out meals to have them all usurped by Mr Bloody Thin Smith.

I have to stick to a plan.  He has to comply or do own thing.  

12.9 177lbs

A bit cheesed off with self for overeating and over drinking yesterday.  I was quite good in France but have been dreadful ever since.  Yesterday, after the incident of the sore thumb with Ben in A&E, I consoled myself with wine in the pub followed by Chinese takeaway.  I then topped it off with gargantuan amounts of nutty french chocolate.  I was truly full at the end of that.  Today will have to be very low cal if I am to lose weight.

My gift for losing 7lbs arrived - a lovely set of paints.  I so hope I have lost 7 lbs and I am not being too optimistic.  I wannabe thinner.

12.9 177lbs

Off to France for a big lunch.  I will have to work very hard to get it off though I plan to make the odd healthy choice such as fish.

12.10 178lbs

It went up to 12.12 AGAIN ... Groan.  With 9 mile walk yesterday it has come down again - phew.
Very controlled at Golf Club dinner.  In big shit with WLR for not logging.  Will now.  V bossy woman giving me grief.

12.10. 178lbs

At my SW weigh in I had lost 4lbs making my total 6lbs.  My starting weight must have been 13.2 wearing armour.

Now I just need to lose one more pound and it is a half stone.

Ate and drank too much last night but was really sick in the night so didn't gain weight.  Horribly unwell though, no headache thank goodness.

Golf club do ce soir.  Can hardly contain myself!

12.10 - 178lbs

Bridget Jones does pounds so I will too.

I am not losing weight very fast despite fasting weightily.  I have stuck religiously to Slimming World.  I think I should be at least a stone lighter by now.  Grumph!

Actually, the first day I went I think I wore a full suit of armour so the second week I weighed 4.5 lbs less.  Then I had a birthday and put on 2lbs.  Now I have lost 1lb.  Oh so complicated but sum total lost over three weeks is a mere 3.5lbs.  This is bloody slow.

Home weighings do not equal outside weighings due to clothing.

12.11

I thought I was being golden.  Evidently not.  All these little extras are really sabotaging any chance of weight loss.  I am the same weight as two years ago.

So today, with the Judith Beck book, I am going to plan every single thing I eat and cut down drastically on fats and sugar.  I can do this.  I have to because, despite my best efforts, all I am doing at the moment is maintenance.

Starting weight at Slimming World was 13, I think.  There is always that clothes allowance.
I am now 12.11 ... So that is 3 lbs down.  Not really very much.
Well, I have til Friday to get this right, or wear a nightie to the next meeting.

12.11

Did the hunger day properly.... ish.

Was so damned hungry had to cheat late afternoon and had a few crisps with tara and a chocolate biscuit and a few chocolate buttons and some of those lovely chocolate wafery things Xa brought back from France for my birthday and some ham bits.  I am so over syns again.  This was on a fast day too.

It is interesting how a tiny bit of food can really take the edge off your hunger and how I invariably eat too much.  

Time to look up Breatharian on Wikapedia.  

12.12

I put on 2lbs.  I always forget you have to add on clothes between here and the official weigh in.  To get even near to a mini weight loss on Slimming World I will now have to lose 5lbs this week.  That is unrealistic.  Snot Face Zoowoman says a glass of wine is 6 points.  I thought it was 4.  Oh!  SFZW was really mean to me 2 weeks ago freezing me out at SW and last night was foul to me in the pub.  I don't like her.  Of course I'm the bad guy and the whole pub hates me now.  Oh well, maybe I will stay out of there and lose lots of weight - no more glasses of 6 points.

I failed to do yesterday's Judith Beck exercise of not eating so you get really hungry then mark your hunger on a scale of one to ten.  I ate breakfast at 11 then when I felt peckish kept myself ballasted with chocolate buttons so I never really felt hungry.  I ruined the dinner because I was in a bate and ended up eating Benny & Jerrys Caramel Core ice cream.

12.13

After a week if perfection I got pissed on my birthday and ate the entire birthday cake - bollocks.

12.12

A fairly good weekend but little extras kept creeping in which meant I was way over cals and syns.

Today I have been ridiculously hungry.  Repeating mantra No food tastes as good as thin feels.
Anyway, how did I get so bloody fat?

There is a fundamental problem

Foods I like                                 Foods I hate

Chocciwocky.                               Yoghurt
Bagels                                            Ryvita
Butter.                                            Low fat spread
Gooey cheese.                               Stewed fruit

You get the picture.  I like meat and veg but I really like pudding much much more.

I love custard and toffee and cupcakes and marshmallows and shortbread and treacle and cream and french fancies and battenberg and flakes and boosts and toast dripping in butter with strawberry jam and cream tea and really nice white bread sandwiches or cheese doorstep sarnies and crisps.

I hate Brussel sprouts and being this hungry.

Poor fatty me.

12.11

Phew .... Going down. I'm going to London dancing and shopping.

I am hoping to get a few clothes and shoes and drop into bellydancing as one does.

Then party, spend rest of weekend with Sensible Thin Alison and eat lots of Sunday lunch.
Now to get my act together.

Over synning on Slimming World.  Need to really concentrate.  Is Judith Beck helping?  Dealing with my flatware today!