12.9

The batteries on my scales are on their last gasp.  I am not replacing them.  I rely on them stupidly.  So I will be on my own for a bit when they finally conk out.

Cake.  I made Victoria sandwich with cream and jam and I ate a huge slice, about 600 cakes.
Tiny lunch - little Greek salad.  Lovely dinner Hairy Bikers chicken tangle pie.  Gorgeous.

And now it will be weigh your food not yourself.

I am so lethargic these days.  I need to take some exercise.  All I want to do is eat and sleep.  Heavenly but unhealthy.  

12.9

12.9 naked weight and, although they could do with a good shock, I think Slimming Club members do not need to see me stark naked on the scales.  This made my weight same as last time.  I hate Stayed the Same weeks.  I really only started in earnest on Monday on Jo's 100 Golden Days challenge.  4 down, 96 to go.

What I learned at Slimming World today.  There are 21 meals between now and next week.  How easy is that?  Just work out what you are going to eat at every 21.  Most of them are so easy with things like cereal and yogurt - well that's 7 taken care of.  Only 14 that require any thought whatsoever and about 4 of those will be really easy - can or packet.  3 frozen.  7 real.

So meal 1 was brunch.  Full cooked breakfast.  About 760 cals.

12.8

Following "Today's Menu" on WLR. Ie. just writing down eating plan for the day then sticking to it.

Going really well so far.  Day 4 today of 100 day challenge.

I have changed the order of meals lately and have big breakfast, snack mid morning, lunch, snack at tea time and usually skip dinner.  This is working so well for me.  If I am hungry I will have dinner but usually my 5pm snack quells the hunger.  So effectively I am doing no carbs after 6 which is proven to be a very effective diet.

Osteopath/psychopath today.  

12.9

Day 2/100 went reasonably well.

Breakfast and lunch and tea were perfect.  Tried instant porridge, like cup noodle, by Alpen which had all the charm of .... pot noodle. Cardboardy and gloopy.  Not for me but I gave it a whirl.  Threw half of it in the bin.

Dinner was a hairy biker's recipe for fish pie.  Very nice.  Hard work.  Drank copious amounts of wine to help it down. Might award myself the book.

12.9

Shoulder injury vastly better but still not star jumps.

Took on a 100 day challenge to lose weight.  Just think if I lost a pound a day I would weigh 80lbs.  I don't think it works quite like that.  But I have to eat no more than 1200 cals a day which isnt enough to keep a small fairy flying.  I will have find big low cal food - where?  Low cals don't fill you up.

Porridge for brekker.  Jolly good.

12.11

Being completely immobile and eating crap, watching fat tv all day long does make me marvel at only 1lb weight gain.

Arm is a lot better today so I can be less static.

Watching all these extreme weight loss programmes makes me question whether I really want to lose weight.  I want to be thinner, of course, but I don't want the continuous nightmare grind of maintaining.  Having said that I seem to be maintaining as my weight hasn't moved much over the past three years and I eat crap all the time.

Slimming Club lady's husband has dropped down dead of a heart attack.  Poor her.  I bet he was overweight.

I would like to lose loads of weight and look really lovely and feel marvellous and all that stuff.  Does my husband deserve a gorgeous wife or a fat old bag?  Anyway, if I do lose weight I had better do it before I get too old.  

12.10

Flat on back, motionless with arm strain.

I need gentle cotton wool wrapping loveliness.  I hurt.

I cannot eat much.  I cannot move an inch.  Well, I cannot move my arm an inch.

Goal: 12.7 by Friday.  Dunno.  Will try.

12.11

Well, yesterday morning I was all light and lovely.  I weighed in at SW with a nice 4lb down but then I celebrated with a "Friday off".  This means I am into next Friday's syns and will have to work ridiculously hard to claw it back.  I have gained 2lbs in a day.  It all started with a doughnut and went bready and puddingy from then on.

Goal of the week: 12.7 which means lettuce and jogging.

Still off chocolate.  Brilliant.  However, I have been warned that with persistence you can get the taste back. I will resist.  Wax and dust is how it tastes these days.  

12.9

Ok an improvement on 13 stone but
1. That was first thing naked.  Not later fully clothed.
2. My scales need a new batt.

If I am really really careful today I might make it to 12.8 and that will be 12.10 at SC which will still gimme a 4lb loss.  Good.

I really am a big fat lump.

Huge

Huge break spent getting huge.

Scales back to normal weight.  Me not quite the same story.

Friday: 13 stone.  (182 lbs)
Saturday: 12.12
Sunday: 12.11

Ok.  I need to lose 6lbs in a week.  I could if I exercised bonkersly and ate only lettuce.
Since last week I remained stationary and ate only doughnuts I feel any effort will work; perhaps not 6lbs work, but a bit.  I have already done 3 so that leaves only 3 more.  Piece of cake, I mean piece of celery.

There is the question of sustainability.  Can I honestly keep up this much effort in my desperate attempt to lose weight?  How will I feel by Wednesday?  Then if, by some weird miracle, I manage the whole week, how will I be the next week?

Oh well, commitment, gritted teeth and no bloody chocolate.  Actually, I don't like it any more.