Way up

Weight: Too scared to look.

I have eaten and eaten and eaten and I just can't stop eating. Oh dear. I am going to get awfully fat if I don't stop this out of control behaviour.

Tomorrow. Serious stuff.

Somewhere near the top of 11

Weight: Somewhere between 11.11 and 11.13

But I just love food. I have overdone it a bit lately I must admit. Time for control methinks. After breakfast!

Eat less, move more

Weight 11.10
This is hardly surprising as I only get out of bed in order to get something to eat. I can see myself turning into one of those giant fat people with rolls and rolls of fat who cannot move but think the state owe them 24 hour medical care and another pork pie. I went swimming to allay this inertia for an hour. I walked the dog. Today I will do more and eat less. Perhaps I will go back on Lighter Life. After all I am starting at a much lower weight so should go down to my goal weight quite quickly. But what for? He's gone. I want no other. Maybe I ought to do this for me and me alone.

Inertia

11.7
God knows how. I'll have another biscuit and watch a bit more crap telly and let you know what happens.

Undeserving

Weight: 11stone 8lbs

But I don't deserve to be 11 stone 8lbs as I have taken no exercise whatsoever and live on alcohol and chocolate. And last night I had a curry. Oh well it should get even better when I get off my arse. I feel very numb these days, when I am not feeling heartbroken. My heart is so bandaged together I can't feel anything. I don't want to eat much - except rubbish. Bread, butter, cheese, chocolate, biscuits and wine. Dreadful!

On it goes

11.9


My weight is OK. It went down massively but I've had a few good meals the past two days so am back up again .. a bit. I'm thinking of going swimming. I'm thinking of going running. I'm thinking of topping myself.