178

Big black cloud. Wish it would fuck off. 

177

Skipped dinner, walked dog.

180

oh dear.  How did I do that?   I went out for every meal for the past week and ate puddings and cakes and took no exercise.  It was quite easy!

175

I was 179 the other day and now I am almost 174.  So it can be done.  Mind you we are eating horrible food - healthy pulses and bitter dreary salads.  Where are the doughnuts?

Tonight we are having lemon syrup sponge.  Mother in law needs fattening up.

The restaurant in the High Street is opening for breakfast this morning.  I am SO tempted!  But it is weigh -in tomorrow so I don't think I dare.

175

OK.  Here is the master plan.  Ready?

30 lbs in 30 weeks.  Well, we will start with 20 lbs in 20 weeks then take it from there.
So that should be 155 by mid September.  That is only 1lb a week but doesnt allow for any bad weeks or sts weeks.  So I have to be spot on for the next 20 x 7 = 140 days then even more vigilant for the next 70 days then not mess up over Christmas.  I am sure I can do it.  No I'm not but I will try.

176

One seven six you are boring.  I want a new number, preferably lower.

What I think I eat and what I really eat.  Mmmmm.  I logged everything on my SW food diary then ate dinner.  I wrote chicken No Skin, broccoli, cauli.  I ate chicken with skin, bacon, mountains of stuffing swamped in gravy.  The only good bit was the veg.

GI books arrived.  No red food.  Only green food.  Ok.  I think.

175

Still colossal but a whole heap better than 179 which I was last weekend.  177 on Friday.  Or something.  I think it was 12 stone 7 lbs.

Fat tv is so bad for me because I see these people at 17 stone and I think I'm not nearly as fat as that, then I see Biggest Loser and there's no comparison then, my total fav, my 600 lb life.  Some of them are bedridden with oozing sores where their folds of flab get all chaffed.