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Why I wake up all night long - sleep apnea.
Lose weight, buy a machine and take more exercise.
OK.

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I now only have 17 to go to make it to my 20 lb first phase.  That will take me to base camp.

Alarm bells .... Tuesday lunch, not sure which Tuesday but there is a lunch coming up.
Kiddies coming down on 19th.  Usual fatted calves to be served.  At least I am Dry Januarying.  It will really really difficult but I will be iron willed.  

182

Well, at last I seem to have stopped gaining weight and actually this has only taken two days not the two weeks it feels like.  On a good note I haven’t felt hungry but I have felt very hefty and bloated.

I wish the horrible cough I have would depart.  That would make exercise a bit more appealing.

I still haven’t exactly worked out how to lose these 20lbs I want to shift.  Now 18.  

184

Day One was bloody perfect.  Well there was that cheese incident but apart from that it was very good indeed.  I am extra vast now.  Why?  Oh balls.

Look, a minimum of 4lbs must disappear before Friday.  Help!

2018

I feel like a heavyweight prize fighter entering the ring.  In the blue corner we have Mrs Fatso Blob Features weighing in at a staggering 184 pounds and in the red corner we have Food.  The crowd roar and the fight begins.

I am going to adopt the attitude of if I don’t want to get bruised I must duck the blows.  I can’t get out of the ring as I actually have to face food in some form, often.  I really don’t quite understand why anyone should need to seek help to not do something.  You don’t want to drink alcohol, just don’t drink it.  You don’t want to eat too much, just have less food.  I so wish it was that easy.  I will pretend it is.  Addiction isn’t a behaviour I know.

My resolutions:
Eat less, drink less alcohol, get up earlier, work more, less Facebook, no internet shopping, be tidier, spend less, finish things, take better care of self, dress better, exercise more and improve concentration.

His resolution:
Abolish Sober Monday.

I like his better.

184

Hugely hippopotomine but in a Biggest Loser kind of way I feel it is quite good to start the diet weighing in higher than the highest darts score.  All I can do is go down and feel good.  Losing weight is a divine feeling and I am ready to embrace it.  The only slightly dull thing is not being able to eat and drink delicious things all day long.

I am worried my bad habits are SO ingrained they might be unchangeable.  They will be temporarily but I have to make this sustainable.  2018 is the year I am going to lose weight.  Perhaps I could just get on with it.

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But it was amazing!