168

That is still 12 stone then there are clothes to add.  Oh this is such hard work.
I just want to get to my 1 stone off with SW.  Then I have to do some more.  Sigh.

169

There was a little rise but nothing too drastic after the wine incident. I feel 168 within my grasp but that is only 12 stone not 11.13.   I could absolutely work my arse off and eat nothing for a week to shift another pound but then there is the next week to think of. .  I don't want to do it that badly or quickly.  

170

I felt monumentally cheesed off with things yesterday and not as euphoric as I should have been at losing 3lbs.  I drank two bottles of wine.  They were divine, I was divine, all was fab.  Today I am still drunk.  The hangover is on the backburner, I can feel it lurking.  I am dreading the weight gain.  I am remembering a little motto that keeps me off booze "You cannot diet with a hangover".  I will soon be hit by the yearning for carbs.  I will then retire to bed for three days.  Oh well, I have nothing much on this week so it doesn't really matter.  I absolutely loved being drunk.  It was lovely.  I was not out of control I was just in a happy mood.

No more groups

I weighed in at 3lbs down.  Then on the way home I met Claire, lovely lovely Claire who just made everything better.  She asked me why I was going to a group that I don't particularly enjoy just to feel deflated when I haven't lost weight.  Is it for the little clap of applause when I have actuallynditched a couple of pounds? Am I only doing it in a pets win prizes kind of way?  Yes, probably.  I am better than that.  I can do it on my own.  After all does Nigella line up each week, pay her fiver and feel slightly humiliated?  I think not. I don't like group therapy.  I think it comes down to owning up to your social class and behaving accordingly.  I am not a great big fat woman off a council estate with a behind the size of a county.  No, it is time to grow up and go solo.

I will continue until Christmas because I am committed but after that no more.  It just ain't for me and  I am not for them.  If I get really desperado after my month in the Caribbean I will go further afield to an area with posher people.  I might get on better there.

I have to lose weight for me and nobody else.  That is the key.

169

I have put on a tiny bit of weight which is a bit frustrating especially when you consider how inedible my dinner was.  It was squash and carrots and sweet potato casserole with chilli and onions and lots of spices and, to be perfectly honest, it was vile.  The ancient couscous wasn't that endearing either.  I will make it into worthy soup.

I strained my shoulder at the outdoor gym and everyone at SW hates me.  So, all in all, not a good day.

169

That's a first for eons.  Blimey, below 170 pounds.  Mind you I have a vile headache and the gruesome diet is not sustainable.  I am also in the doghouse at my fat club for being rude and mouthy.  Oh dear, again!  This will sure as heck ruin my appetite and make my weight plummet.  I have to go on Friday but I am not staying for the chit chat.  The teacher rang me up and gave me a right bollocking.  Poor me.  I probably deserved it but I am a bit embarrassed.

And so I soldier on eating 1000 calories of plant based foods.  Only one more day to go.  Wheehee.  Then I have to do it again next month.  I have to start on a Sunday in order to finish on a Thursday night.  Mind you this is only to fit in with Fat Club and if I am to be drummed out of the brownies I may as well just run it from Monday to Friday and enjoy my Sunday roast.

Plant based foods rules out milk, eggs, yoghurt and cheese and I have had all four.  I have avoided butter but I have had the odd biscuit and cake.

One hundred and sixty nine and losing - wow.

172

I have had some ups and downs of late. I went out for a wonderful dinner on Friday and put on a couple of pounds which I have now ditched.  I was very very full.

I attempted a new diet but Day 1 went wrong as it sometimes does but I remounted the vegetarian horse and did a food plan for my five day plant based foods only diet.  1000 calories of plant based foods for five days a month.  I have been giving it my all so should be super thin in no time!

I can get my trousers on.  There's a surprise.

Day two vegetarian diet.  What horrors lie in store?  I think it's veg curry tonight.  I will consult with the oracle, Mr S.