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I am quite unwell.  That is to say I am compulsively eating and my drinking is out of control.  I am borderline alcoholic with very little control.  No more booze says I then I have another glass the moment Mr Smith comes home.  I am also eating every hour or so.

So here is my strategy for today

3 meals
1 snack (tea time)
Stay busy

I am not sleeping.  Awake at 3/4am then tired all day.  I am sweaty.  I am very fat.  I can feel a pain in my chest.  I have some bladder control issues.  I am in a mess.  I need tlc and less food.

I thought a weekend alone would be so good for me to sort myself out but after the previous weekend of massive production and efficiency it all caved in.  I achieved very little.  I did swim which was lovely and made me feel good.  I have new hair which I totally love.  I cleaned my bedroom and sparkled the kitchen.  Much better.  I made two patchwork squares, yet to finish one.  I got out a big patchwork for quilting.  I will try to get it pinned, tacked, sandwiched together.  Then at least I have done something rather than faffed about achieving nothing.  I also have a painting on the go which is sort of lacking direction somehow.

So here is what I want to achieve by Friday.

3 lb weight loss
10 patchwork squares all done
Painting half done
A lovely Wednesday
A quilt top all together.

Yeah!